Life.

It's just how it is.

   Jan 20

Early beginnings.

Cameron my first born tried to come early a few times before finally being successful. The first time I went into labor I was only 22 weeks pregnant. I was admitted to hospital for a night and given medication to stop the labor. Thankfully the medication worked. I went into labor again at about 26 weeks and again they gave me a shot to stop it. The at 33 weeks 6 days (for those who don’t 40 weeks is full term) I went into labor again but that time they were unable to stop it. 6 weeks is considered premature.It is also sort of a turning point for babies. Around that time babies could be born with little to no complications or they could be born with a lot of health problems. One example being that their lungs could be under developed causing breathing problems. Some how we were blessed though. Cameron was born 6 lB 7 oz and 19 inches. For a baby born 6 weeks early this is a good size. He was strong and should no sign of any problems. I say he was just to excited to begin life to wait any longer.

Cameron


   Jan 19

2am

I lay here mind reeling.
Glances I keep stealing
At the clock as I am pondering
And my mind won’t stop wandering
As the time keeps on passing.

Tick. Tock.


   Jan 19

Beginning parenthood.

Rob and I didn’t rush into parenthood in fact you might say we took the long route to get there. We were married 7 years before our first son was born. We talk over the years about having children but we enjoyed the time with just the two of us that we kept delaying actually starting a family. When we were first married people would ask us when we were going to start having children and I would answer in 5 years. Well 5 years later I was still giving the same answer. So in August of 2006 Rob and I went on a Camping trip just the two of us. We had a long drive north and on that trip we discussed a lot when would be a good time to have kids and by the time our travels ended we had decided to start a family. February 2007 we announced to our family that I was pregnant. We told them at the dinner for our 1.5 Anniversary (7 years). In September @007 Cameron was born and parent hood began for us but the rest is another story.


   Jan 18

Not your “normal” kind of beginning.

As many know and I am sure through this blog some are learning Rob and I aren’t “normal” and as a part of us not being normal we decided not to get married on a “normal” day. So Rob and I chose to get married on February 29, 2000. A date that we had both decided on when we were young and before we had ever even met. I had decided when I was about 11 years old that I would get married on that day. I thought it was the greatest. I LOVED the idea of only having your anniversary every 4 years. So when Rob and I started dating we decided on that date. When it came around a few years later we decided we would do it. We were living together and had already decided to commit our lives to each other just not in a public way so this we thought would be perfect. We didn’t have much money so we didn’t do anything fancy. It was the day that was important to us and not so much the event. We were married in a minsters home that I found in the yellow pages. There was a total of nine people in attendance including the minister and his wife. It was a Tuesday night and afterwards we went to Mc. Donlad’s for ice cream. To add to the weirdness of it all I wore a black dress. I know it isn’t a beginning to a marriage that most people would want but it worked for us. Here we are coming up on our third anniversary and still together and happy.

It may not be a “normal” beginning but it was our beginning.


   Jan 17

The beginning of my life, well…..my memories.

A lot of my child hood is a blur. I don’t remember a lot of it. Some of the memories I may have blocked out to not deal with the stress as a child of being from a broken home and others are just lost. My first memory even is a little questionable. I am not completely sure if I really remember it or if I am remembering pictures. I remember being in a white crib as a baby with an elephant painted on it and a mobile hanging over top. It had 5 arms with animals hanging from them. I think it was suppose to be circus animals. I know one was a seal and another was a lion and there was an elephant on a ball. I am not sure what the other 2 were. It wasn’t very flashy in fact I am not even sure that it played music or turned or anything like that.

I often wonder if this memory is real. Sometimes Ithink it must be, it just seems real. Other times I think that I would have been to young to remember such things. I have played it over in my head a thousand times but I am not sure if this really is a memory but I have decided it doesn’t really matter. This is how I am chosing to remember my beginning and if it isn’t really then I am okay with living in blissful ignorance.

What is your first (or possibly first) memory?


   Jan 16

Beginning JK.

Cameron started JK (Junior Kindergarten) this past September. I had the normal mixed emotions of sadness and excitment of most mothers. I was happy for him and new he would love school (and he does) but also sad that my first born was growing up and wasn’t a baby anymore, but I wasn’t teary like some moms are when their baby is starting school. That being said tomorrow is JK sign up for next year and for Nathanial. I am not really teary over him starting school and I realize that it is still a few months till September and starting school. Its more that I am amazed. It seems like just a few days ago that I was holding him in my arms not so much as a new born. More when he was 7 months old. I was so focused on him while he was really sick and having his surgeries. I spent so much energy on those moments that it made things like the beginning of Kindergarten feel like it was an eternuty away. I just look back and wonder where all of that time went. It passes so quickly and each passing year it seems to go even faster.

Tomorrow morning I will phone and sign Nathanial up for Junior Kindergarten officially beginning his education. He’s no longer a baby!


   Jan 15

Beginning something new.

I have decided to make Sundays on my blog “Silent Sundays”. I will post a picture. I might be just something I like or one I have taken in the past week. I might post a description with it  and of course a title but nothing more. Just a nice break from blogging and a way to share pictures that might not otherwise make it to my blog. So to begin this new category here are some picks from or family bowling outing with the kids today.

 

 


   Jan 14

The beginning of something more.

After meeting at the Halloween party (see here) we spent a lot of time hanging out and getting to know each other. Going for walks and playing basket ball and just hanging out. The Christmas holidays soon arrived and we were both of from school with lots of time. Some friends of ours had started trying to set us up (not that they were trying very hard, more pestering). One night we were hanging out and we got into a pillow fight. He pinned me down and was hitting me with a pillow. I jokingly said he was going to give people ideas about us. He responded that maybe he was trying to give me ideas. Luckily my mom arrived to pick me up with perfect timing and saved me with a honk of the car horn. I grabbed my coat and ran for the door with barely a wave good bye. We continued hanging out and on New years eve 1997 shared our first kiss.  That was the beginning of Rob and I dating.

To quote a friend Andrea “LOVE!” (Said in a cutesy sing song tone).


   Jan 13

The beginning to a craptacular Friday the 13th.

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First we over slept. It snowed. Couldn’t find Cam’s snow pants. We were late leaving for school. Had to get 2 kids to not play in the snow so we could get to school. The wagon broke on the way to school (while crossing the road., no one was hurt thankfully). Had to trek 3 kids through the school to sign Cam in at the office. Then I had to get Nate and Aly and a broken wagon home in the snow. Got home and tried to make a cup of tea to warm up and the pull tab broke and I couldn’t open the container of tea. Then Nate helped himself to milk while I was busy and spilled it. Rob on the other hand left at his normal time and what is normally a 45 minute drive took 2 hours. What a wonderful beginning to Friday the 13th.

P.S. I am not really superstitious I just love to blame things on superstitions because then it isn’t my fault. 😀


   Jan 12

The beginning of a Boo-tiful friendship.

I was shy in school but did okay in small groups. In October of 1997 (which seems like an eternity ago) I was invited by some friends to a Halloween party. Everyone was hanging out having a good time. I on the other hand was hanging around trying to look like I belonged and I am sure failing at it. I knew most of the people at the party but was friends with only a couple of them. I was just getting up the energy to leave because I was bored and tired when a guy at the party started talking to me. I don’t remember really what he said or what we talked about but I do know that I didn’t leave until the party was over and I had spent the whole night talking with him and had had a great time. Over the next few weeks we hung out a lot and became great friends. Sometimes in those moments where you expect to find nothing you can find the greatest things in life.