Yesterday I was talking to Nate’s development worker about having to sign Nate up for school in the new year. She asked if I knew what had to be done before September. I told her I knew about phoning for the per-registration. I said I just “did that a few months ago for Cam.” That’s when it hit me. It wasn’t just a few months ago. That was last January. That was almost a year ago. Cam has been in school for over 3 months now. Nate is in preschool. Even Aly is starting to sit up on her own now. I swear I blinked and time just disappeared. As a kid December seemed like the longest month. It was hard to believe that it had the same number of days as all of the other months. But now as an adult I feel like I should skip sleeping just to have more time to get things done. It is all just disappearing to fast. I no longer feel young.
Thirty came and went and I didn’t give it a second thought but as thirty two is approaching I am beginning to feel my age. I am not trying to sound whiney it isn’t really a complaint (I guess). More of a realization. When I was younger I would think one day when I am older I will…. Fill in the blank. Go sky diving. Travel. Buy a volkswagon. Go spelunking. Learn to hunt. The list goes on. (Most of them are… well… dangerous to my physical health. 🙂
I spent a lot of time looking forward to when I would be older.
Well.
It’s here.
I am older.
And I am left wondering?
Now what???