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   Jan 01

In the begining…..

Another year has ended. As we begin into 2012. I am looking ahead a day, a week, a month, a year. I don’t like resolutions. I feel they are setting yourself up for failure and if you manage to succeed (well good) but did it really need to be a resolution? Granted the beginning of the year is a good time to reflect on what has past and on what lies ahead. There are a few things I would like to accomplish in 2012. Some of them are on going goals some of them are new-ish.

1. Continue blogging. (I have been going strong for 2 months now and would like to keep it going).
2. Get fit – Before my kids were born I was in good shape. I was very active. I want to gain back some of that activeness that I have lost.
3. Explore new foods at home – I love food and I like cooking. I want to try new recipes and maybe document some of them on my blog for others to share in.
4. Budget – I want to learn more about managing my household income and to better use the money that we have.
5. Be on time – I want to finally figure out how to get 3 kids up and out of the house in the mornings to get Cam to school on time.

The list goes on but you get the idea.

As a part of achieving at least part of one of these goals I have decided that for EVERY day in January I will write a blog that is (at least loosely) about a BEGINNING. Such as favorite beginnings to a book or movie, my marriage, the birth of my children. You get the idea. If you can think of a good “beginnings” topic please let me know as coming up with 31 “beginning” topics is proving a little harder then I originally thought and I would be grateful for the help.


   Dec 30

A nice evening alone.

Most Friday nights David and Rebekah usually come over and visit and we do a whole evening thing we have supper and visit and then after the kids are in bed we watch a movie. It is a lot of fun but sometimes it is nice to have a break. Tonight was one of those breaks. Tonight it was just Rob and I home with the kids. As soon as the kids were in bed Rob decided to go to bed. I wasn’t feeling like going to bed so I decided to have a soak in the tub and relax and watch a movie. It was so nice to just sit back and have an evening alone. It has been a long time since I had a night alone to just relax. I have to remember in the future to have more of these breaks and to just take a little time to myself to help recharge the body and the mind.

I think I need to buy some new bath soap or something for next time to spoil myself a little.

 


   Dec 29

I think I am going round the bend.

Crazy.

Nuts.

Bonkers.

Loopy.

Call it what you will but the last few days (since Christmas ended) I feel sort of like I imagine it must feel to go insane. Today on at least half a dozen occasions I walked into a room only to realize that I had no idea why I had walked in to it to begin with. I also keep losing my train of thought, I have no focus and…. oh theres other stuff but I keep forgetting what I was going to say. I have also been texted messages to completely the wrong person (Oops). I have also felt a little dizzy and of balance so I think it could all be caused by my body fighting a cold or something like that. All in all not really any serious issues, but it really is unnerving. It makes me wonder how it must feel to really be loosing your mind with age due to something like dementia. Both my Grandmother and my Grandmother in-law (Rob’s Nan) have recently been diagnosed with some form of dementia, I am not really sure on all of the details. It must be a horrible feeling. I scares me to think that one day I just might not remember the things that are most important to me. To forget your loved ones and the times you spent with them. The way I have been feeling today it has really made me think a lot about how Grandma and Nan must be feeling going through this. Neither of them is in the advanced stages yet but it is scary to think of what could be ahead for them. I wish there were something I could do for them. It also makes me wonder if they know and understand what is going on? To people know when they are loosing their minds or are they spared that torture?


   Dec 28

My sneaky sneaker.

This morning Nate awoke before me and came down stairs while Cam came into my room and woke me up. I called down to Nate and asked him to come back upstairs but being 3 he didn’t listen. So I got dressed and Cam and headed down stairs. I could hear him playing in the living room so I figured everything was okay and didn’t rush. As I was reaching the bottom of the stairs Nate asked me “Please me chocolate?”, “No” I said.”Your not having chocolate before breakfast.” I then walked in the livingroom to notice something on his face I looked a little closer and realised that it was chocolate (he had gotten into the left over Christmas treats). The little toad was sitting here eating chocolate while I was upstairs. I cleaned him up and gave him a time out but that just didn’t seem like enough punishment so for the rest of the day he was banned from having sweets (including juice). A few hours after breakfast Cameron asked for atreat he had been behaving really well so I let him have a little bit of his Christmas chocolate. Cam had a smaller peice then the one Nate had eaten in the morning but that didn’t matter to him. He was so upset that Cam was having a treat and he wasn’t. Then they wanted juice with lunch but Nate was reminded that he wasn’t allowed to have any because he had taken treats without asking. This time he was mad, but I really think the punishment worked. Later in the afternoon he was playing telling his toys not to eat treats or they would be in trouble and wouldn’t get juice. I love when things work out the way they are meant to.


   Dec 27

The end is here.

The Christmas holidays are over. Rob had an extra long weekend for Christmas break (4 days). But tomorrow they’re over and he has to return to work. Even though the 2 of those days were complete chaos it has been nice having him home and not thinking about work. It has been so wonderful having an extra set of hands to help with the kids. I am not looking forward to him being gone tomorrow for 10+ hours of the day. Ugh, it’s already making tomorrow seem long. It was mostly the little things. Like not having to worry about the boys while I was putting Aly for a nap or changing her diaper and not having them under foot while I am trying to make meals. Why oh why do the holidays have to be over all ready?

 

On a seperate note the boys are thrilled to pieces that it finally snowed and were excited to go to bed so they could get up and play outside in the snow. I am very afraid that they are going to be up at 6 am or something crazy wanting to go out side and play.

Ugh…

Tomorrow sounds long!


   Dec 27

Testing.

I am posting this to see if this new facebook wordpress app I installed is working.


   Dec 26

Christmas Pride.

I want to boast a little. Because hey we all deserve a chance to enjoy the glory of our accomplishments. I would have written about this yesterday but at our house Christmas doesn’t end till really late. Even the boys were up late last night. They didn’t get to bed until about11pm last night which is about 2 1/2hours later than normal. Any way. I had a lot to do for Christmas to be ready but I completed abou85% of the cleaning I had planned to do Saturday (with Rob’s help). But my biggest achievement was Christmas day. Normally I am to busy with food prep and stuff to really be involved in all the activities going on and I am always running behind schedule. This year I decided to change the menu a little so that I would have less prep and would be able to be apart of the fun. Soinstaed of waffles I made baked french toast with berries and for supper I had every one bring the fixings and dessert so that all I had to make was the cranberry sauceĀ (had to have homemade), the stuffing and the turkey. In years past I would be cooking breakfast while people were eating but this year I was able to sit down with everyone to eat. Then at supper people would arrive at 5:30 and the turkey would still be cooking because I had put it in late and we wouldn’t eat until about 7pm which was an hour later then planned. This year when the last guests arrived we carved the turkey and were sitting down at the table at 6pm (oh and I had the table set before people arrived). This is such a change for me. I am usually playing catch up but I am so excited to have actually have been in control instead. I need more practic and work on timing things but I am so proud of myself for what I did accomplish. I now feel like I can do it. It may seem silly to a lot of people but it makes me ridiculously happy.

I am also very proud of my boys. They were very over whelmed by everything that went on yesterday but all in all they behaved quite well although they did get carried away a few times. They were so excited to give out gifts to people.I love my kids!


   Dec 25

How do they do it?

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Every year for about a decade now I have told myself that this Christmas I will be done early. That I won’t be shopping days before Christmas. That I will wrap things ahead so that I am not up past midnight Christmas eve. And every year it comes down to the wire.

This year is no exception. Today I cleaned (most of) the hose while Rob (with the boys) went to get the last Christmas shopping on our list and a few things that we need from the grocery store. Then we had Christmas eve service followed by wraping presents (all of them), preping the food for breakfast and finishing cleaning the kitchen. I finally gave up for the night a few minutes ago (around 12:30am). I have more to do but it can wait till morning.

My goal is to one day be ready before 12ish am Christmas morning. I just don’t know how people do it. Oh well Merry Christmas to everyone.


   Dec 23

Why don’t I sleep?

I don’t have insomnia or anything like that but I do wonder what is wrong with me? Am I insane? Was dropped on my head as a baby? For as long as I can remember and even now as an adult I am horrible about going to bed. It doesn’t matter how tired I am I will avoid going to bed. Years ago before we had kids Rob and I were working different shifts and if I was tired and he wasn’t home I would sleep on the couch. I just didn’t want to go to bed. Now I will often be exhausted and instead of going to bed before Rob I will just read emails and waste time in cyber space till he’s ready for bed. Sometimes I’ll even stay up past Rob even though I amĀ  exhausted.

Tonight is one of those nights. Instead of blogging and going to bed.
It’s a habit I need to break but I just don’t see how to. Well on the that note I am tired good night.


   Dec 22

The magic is gone.

Warning not for young children.

I am not about to say anything horrible but I am going to talk about Santa and I would hate to make a child sad.

In our house we don’t have Santa as a part of Christmas. What I mean by that is he doesn’t bring presents to the kids and we don’t tell them that Santa is real or any of that stuff. We just celebrate the birth of Christ. We have a tree (a fake one) and we exchange presents (what’s a birthday without presents) and of course we have cake. But no Santa. We decided to do things this way for a few reasons. 1. Rob was very upset as a child when he discovered that Santa wasn’t real and that people had lied to him. 2. It is to commercial. We wanted to get rid of some of the flash and focus more on the story of Christ (we don’t have the Easter bunny either).

I was okay with this decision when we made it. However I didn’t consider how taking Santa out of Christmas would also take out the magic. As a child I remember the thrill of getting up Christmas morning with excitment and wonder about what Santa had brought me. I couldn’t wait to race down stairs to see all the presents under the tree. Even days before Christmas I was buzzing. I couldn’t think about much else. But that is something that I feel I have taken away from my children by not making them belive in Santa. For the last few days I have been trying to figure out away to add the magic with out adding in the man in Red. So far i ve come up with no ideas. Well we do what we feel is best as parents and hope are kids are okay in the end. I just can’t help but wonder if one day any of my kids will regret this decision we made for them.